The feel that I seldom feel...

something's seriously wrong with me. My health has always been that "something"..but this time it's not my health....my mind doesnt seem to be in greatest of its form. What is it? why is my mind not in its senses...what is that one thing which is hollowing my mind like a termite....can i name it? can i tame it? can i blame it??? i speak aloud and ask myself..but the mind reaches the same disturbed state and the answer i get is NULL...well...if that sounds a bit too technical...my mind doesn stop at a point...still the quest is on...for the termite...someday i might find u...i might fight u...i might kill u and emerge victorious...leading my life...without hesitation...without begging...without crying....and with smile all over...come out u termite...the day i find u....i'll slay u...slaughter u...will trash u from my mind forever...But what if the day doesnt come at all? What if i die in the quest of the termite..What if i find it someday and it's too late...and i have no other choice than to live with u!!! Oh holy shit.....i cant take this anymore...cannot really take this anymore....The day i emerge victorious....i shall cry...i shall shout...shall woooooooooooo and yipppppie around....
Waiting for the day...Counting each day.....waiting for the day...
-Harsha